Sunday, May 24, 2009

This is me, trying not to panic.

I'm losing weight. Not much, but enough to look at the scale and go, "Huh. I should weigh more than that normally." Like maybe five pounds total. So not much. But enough.

I haven't been sick, really. I'm one of the lucky girls that doesn't have to bellow like an elephant seal into the toilet before or after every meal. Me and ol' Thunder Bucket have only had a small handful of serious chats... and they weren't terrible, and occurred weeks ago.

Is this normal? I'm 13 weeks pregnant and losing weight without being sick, and eating constantly.

I know there are women out there that would kill to have that problem, but seriously. I'm not that girl. I don't randomly lose weight - quite the contrary. I can beat the hell out of myself and diet until I want to faint, and my body stays the same size. Because I'm Bohemian, this is my curse: I do not lose weight for no reason.

It's a holiday weekend -- I can't talk to my doctor until Tuesday. I fly to New York for a week on Friday. I'm trying really hard not to freak out right now.

What in the hell am I doing losing weight? What if something's wrong?

I'm scared. I'm trying not to be scared, but I am. I really am.

1 comment:

  1. It's not uncommon to lose a couple pounds.

    Some people don't really put much weight on till five or six months.

    Relax and enjoy the experience.